Shock has befallen me. I can't believe where I am in life. I can't believe the depths of despair I've had to endure as the wife of Kevin T. Adams.
When I arrived at his job for our very first date in July 2001, I shuddered at the sight of this grown-ass man standing outside a retail clothing store walking back-and-forth doing security. It was a premonition of the poverty-filled life I would have with this unaccomplished individual. The premonition did not come as a vision, it was more of a jolt similar to being struck by lightning. It came and went in a second, then I had to make a decision - skid off and run for my dear life or pull over and meet the man that might ruin my life. I felt trapped because he was standing right out front. While waiting for the light to turn green, I reasoned that he might see me if I kept going. Then how could I ever explain myself when he called? In that moment, I felt like escape was not an option so I pulled over. I don't recall exactly but even if he told me he did security, the sight of him outside that store spoke volumes of a man who was an underachiever. As he walked up to the car to greet me, all I could think about was getting the hell out of there.
He said hello and explained that he was closing the store. I felt like I had no choice but to wait, or risk being perceived as rude. All the while, I wanted nothing more than to run for my life. One by one, the store employees filed out. When the last person exited, Kevin pulled the metal gate down and locked it. As he walked over to my car again, I tried to feign excitement over our planned date. I drove us to the local movie theater, Phipps Plaza. He went to the counter and we were admitted for a viewing of "Juraissic Park". Thinking back, I'm not sure whether he paid for the movie tickets or asked for a hook-up at the ticket counter (something he made a habit out of in coming years). In retrospect, who the hell goes to a movie for a very first date? I know, I know... Lots of folks do but it's not a good idea because you can't get to know the person. Maybe dinner first then a movie, but not straight to a movie. Anyhow, I could not wait for the movie to end so I could run home and delete all Kevin's contact information. I knew in my heart, I would never see him again. When the movie did end and we were driving away from the theater, Kevin said he had another destination in mind. For some strange reason, instead of shutting him down upon request, I remained open in the moment and went with the flow. Before I thought it through, I agreed to accompany Kevin to the second destination. As we drove and spoke, I got to know a lot about the guy behind the security uniform and really begin to like him. During that drive, the door to my heart opened and Kevin walked in.
Unfortunately, I chose the latter. because he did ruin my life. He was everything that my intuition tried to warn me of in that split second - a loser.
